Life
is just hard sometimes, isn’t it? Life throws us curve balls when we least
expect them and we wonder how we going to get through the valley’s, at least I
do at times.
I
get things on my mind and I obsess over them.
I lie awake at night; sleep just doesn’t come some times until the early
morning hours and at other times not at all. The next day I am grumpy,
lethargic, in other words, just plain lazy. But, wait, I have a reason. I have
something that is bothering me. I just can’t get it off of my mind. There isn’t
anything that I can do about the situation, but still it worries me. What’s wrong with this picture?
In
my renewed walk with our Father in Heaven, I pray daily, sometimes all day long
as I carry out the chores that can’t be ignored. Sometimes my prayers are
silent, and sometimes, I find myself talking out loud to the Lord as I am
washing dishes, vacuuming, dusting, folding clothes, etc. Those prayers are general prayers thanking
Him for the day, for my family and for loving everyone and most of all for my
salvation. But then, there are times
when these just don’t seem sufficient if I am really burdened by a problem.
Situations
beyond my control have arisen over the past month that has caused me to worry,
even to the point of feeling somewhat depressed. I have lost sleep due to this
worry. Earlier last week, it became such
a worry, I could think of little more. It
isn’t something that I feel that I can share with others, so I was beginning to
feel helpless, and I consider myself to be strong, but I was leaving out the
very essence of my strength – my HEAVENLY FATHER! I struggled through the day, and all of a
sudden, I burst into tears. That’s when I turned off the TV and the house
was quiet, and I fell to my knees sobbing, asking God to lift this heavy burden
from my heart, and asked that He resolve this problem according to His Will. When I finished my prayer I got up and felt
peaceful although I had no assurance that He would answer my prayer the way in
which I desired.
To date, the situation has only been
partially resolved and I have been on my knees again, But I am not worrying
about it any longer because I have given it to God. As I have been
pondering this all day, I came across a quote by Billy Graham who said "We
can change the course of events if we go to our knees in believing
prayer." Further, I am reminded of 1 John
5: 14-15 - 14 This is the confidence we have
in approaching God: that if we ask anything according to his will, he hears us.
15 And if we know that he hears us—whatever we
ask—we know that we have what we asked of him.” (NIV)
Thank you Father for giving us the gift of eternal life and for
the truths of your Word. Thank you for hearing our petitions and lifting our
burdens. I praise your name and give you the glory.. Thank you for your grace and for your unfaltering
love. Thank you for the privilege of coming to you with our burdens, and being
assured that all of our supplications are heard.Thank you for showing me that when I ask "Where Can I Go", you show me that I can go to the Lord. Amen.
