Where Do I go...

 

Life is just hard sometimes, isn’t it? Life throws us curve balls when we least expect them and we wonder how we going to get through the valley’s, at least I do at times.

I get things on my mind and I obsess over them.  I lie awake at night; sleep just doesn’t come some times until the early morning hours and at other times not at all. The next day I am grumpy, lethargic, in other words, just plain lazy. But, wait, I have a reason. I have something that is bothering me. I just can’t get it off of my mind. There isn’t anything that I can do about the situation, but still it worries me.  What’s wrong with this picture?

In my renewed walk with our Father in Heaven, I pray daily, sometimes all day long as I carry out the chores that can’t be ignored. Sometimes my prayers are silent, and sometimes, I find myself talking out loud to the Lord as I am washing dishes, vacuuming, dusting, folding clothes, etc.  Those prayers are general prayers thanking Him for the day, for my family and for loving everyone and most of all for my salvation.  But then, there are times when these just don’t seem sufficient if I am really burdened by a problem.

Situations beyond my control have arisen over the past month that has caused me to worry, even to the point of feeling somewhat depressed. I have lost sleep due to this worry.  Earlier last week, it became such a worry, I could think of little more.  It isn’t something that I feel that I can share with others, so I was beginning to feel helpless, and I consider myself to be strong, but I was leaving out the very essence of my strength – my HEAVENLY FATHER!  I struggled through the day, and all of a sudden, I burst into tears. That’s when I turned off the TV and the house was quiet, and I fell to my knees sobbing, asking God to lift this heavy burden from my heart, and asked that He resolve this problem according to His Will.  When I finished my prayer I got up and felt peaceful although I had no assurance that He would answer my prayer the way in which I desired.    

To date, the situation has only been partially resolved and I have been on my knees again, But I am not worrying about it any longer because I have given it to God. As I have been pondering this all day, I came across a quote by Billy Graham who said "We can change the course of events if we go to our knees in believing prayer."   Further, I am reminded of 1 John 5: 14-15 - ¹⁴ This is the confidence we have in approaching God: that if we ask anything according to his will, he hears us. 15 And if we know that he hears us—whatever we ask—we know that we have what we asked of him.” (NIV)

Thank you Father for giving us the gift of eternal life and for the truths of your Word. Thank you for hearing our petitions and lifting our burdens. I praise your name and give you the glory..  Thank you for your grace and for your unfaltering love. Thank you for the privilege of coming to you with our burdens, and being assured that all of our supplications are heard.Thank you for showing me that when I ask "Where Can I Go", you show me that I can go to the Lord.  Amen.